Goodbye My Lover

A break up is a break up. I know this one was for the good for there are responsibilities and things to take care of but that doesn't mean that I'm not sad or depressed about it. It's extremely hard falling in love with someone and then totally have to forget about them. But they're feelings change, you suddenly become just another to them and sometimes to be honest it happens fast and they forget about you. Well for me it's different. This time is different. I fell in love. I wanted to spend my whole rest of my life with this girl. She is the one. And I know I need to leave for two years and it's cuz I want to and my desire to serve is strong but my biggest fear is to not be with that girl forever cuz to me marriage sounds scary and freighting with any other person but her but it's time to face the truth that most likely she will be married in the time I'm gone. She's so amazing and guys will see that. She'll come to like people better looking and more amazing than I am. And all that scares me cuz I really love this girl. But i have a feeling she will soon forget about me and will not miss me or remember me. I guess i just have to deal with it. I guess. Anyways. I'm sorry for this depressed post but I really needed to vent. :(