Headaches?...

This will be the second Sunday, which I have gotten a bad headache. I honestly have no idea why I get them but I assume that it is stress related. Lately, I have been very stressed over school, work, my social life and my recently weight gain... Honestly, I often times wish that I could just take a nice long year vacation somewhere and just escape from everything and focus on the development of me. Nevertheless, I don't have means to do it, so until I am able to do that. I will just have to survive and endure to the end.

My Daily Struggle

I've been working since I was about 16 years old. That means I've now been working for about 8 years. I've worked in different jobs; dishwasher at a nursing home, car wash detailer, and now I'm a Call Center Rep for a DirecTV retailer near my home town. Sadly, all that I've been learning these past 8 years is that I work for someone else's dreams and not mine and to be honest, I feel like dreams don't really come true but that LUCK touches some and  ONLY THEY accomplish their dreams and become successful. Even more sad, I feel like my dreams of becoming successful will never come true. I go to school only because my parents want me to. I personally don't feel like I get a whole lot out of it. I feel like if I were to read a book instead of going to school, I get more out of it than going to class... But yet I go to please others... I've always thought that there is another way to accomplish success without going to school or even working a regular 9-5 job. I feel like human beings have been created with such great mind power and abilities to accomplish many great things in life and that we all live far below our potential. We all have hidden talents which we haven't discovered yet perhaps because we are forced to settle for a "safe life". Go to school to then get a job. I feel like because of our lack of living up to our potential an lack of taking risks we miss out on so many wonderful blessings and opportunities that perhaps would help us achieve our desired life style. I often feel like I will never aciomplish my dreams of being very wealthy and successful, to travel the world and even spread the Gospel of Jesus Cheist to all. Sadly, I feel this way even more today. I need a way out. I need a way out of Poverty. I must get out.

A Much Needed Day!

In a very Independent and Self Centered World, we often need to feel as we are important, are recognized and respected. Today, I felt those three things as I attended all three of my Church meeting at my local ward, Mount Ensign Spanish 1st Ward after being gone for three weeks. I am extremely grateful for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and the Gospel of Jesus Christ which it teaches. They teach us to love God before all and also to love our neighbor, or in other words to love everyone as we are all children of God, brothers and sisters.

I am also grateful to be able to attend Church every Sunday and seek the Revelation which comes from our loving Heavenly Father. I have once again learned the importance of going to church and seeking the guidance from the Father. My love for attending church was once again revived.

After church I was blessed be invited to have lunch with my home teaching companion and his family at his sister's house who is also in my ward. I definitely felt the love there. We talked about my recent trip to Peru and all that has since happened, including the talk about my extremely beautiful girlfriend Fiorella Hilares. Today I also, had a nap and read chapter 18 of Mosiah in the Book of Mormon. Overall today has been an extremely great Sabbath Day!

The STRUGGLE is Real!

We are often told that we are able to do anything that we put our minds to. I believe that statement is true but I do believe that you must also have Passion. Every day I go to work and feel miserable. I do not enjoy what I do. I only stay because I love the money and bonuses that I often get. Lately I've been feeling as I am missing some thing in my life. I had great desires to do great things in life and accomplish a lot but I feel like at this point of my life I'm stuck. I want to progress faster but I feel like some thing is holding me back. Today was quite the struggle for me. I felt extremely home sick. I wanted to go back Perú so bad. I miss everything there. I feel like I would be way more happy if I was to move back there. It would be like a new start for me and I know that I would be successful down there with the help of all my loving relatives. Therefore today was a really hard day for me. The MORAL of the story is that I need to find my PASSION! I hope and pray that tomorrow will be a little bit later.